Excruciating Suffering: My Battle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with severe pain behind a single eye that persists up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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